For some time now, I have wanted to be pushed to my emotional edge to the point of crying. I had assumed that when this finally happened, it would involve LBR inflicting pain on me. I envisioned her pinching or beating me just beyond my limit until I began to weep. I could only imagine the intensity of the emotional connection.
Yesterday, it happened. LBR broke me, but in a most unexpected fashion.
One of the most amazing things about LBR is that she does things HER way. Yesterday, LBR came to me and told me I would be taking a bath with her. Drawing her bath and creating a relaxing space for her is one of the tasks she commands of me; and one I enjoy. But LBR knows that I do not enjoy taking baths. I do occasionally join her in the bathtub, but this time was different. There were no candles, and LBR insisted I get into the tub before her.
“Sit down,” she commanded impatiently. She was wearing an over-sized bathrobe. This was also odd behaviour. She pulled a blindfold out of her pocket and placed it over my eyes. Captive in my own darkness, my mind began racing.
“What is LBR doing,” I wondered to myself. What was she wearing? My other senses became more acute, having been stripped of my sight. I could hear the robe falling to the floor. She climbed into the tub and sat down facing me.
LBR began to probe, wanting to know what fantasies I had in my mind. What did I want her to be wearing? What did I want to happen?
I think it took LBR by surprise when I told her I didn’t have any preconceived fantasies. I told LBR that she is always so creative, and our experiences are so diverse, that I don’t find the need tp fantasize as much as I used to. I hadn’t really stopped to consider this until LBR began her interrogation.
So with that she began to ask what I liked about her body. She asked me if I liked her nipples (she knows I love them and they get SO hard when she is excited). She told me to imagine her nipples, and forbid me to touch her even though she was merely inches away from me.
She grabbed my balls and squeezed them roughly. She began to move further up and rub against me. She continued her verbal assault. Then the most amazing thing happened. LBR began to push her finger ever so gently into my ass. I was overwhelmed. I couldn’t keep my head upright and I went off into headspace.
I have never felt more dominated. I have never felt more loved. I began to weep uncontrollably. I think my response took LBR off guard. But she realized she had broken me down emotionally.
She leaned forward without a word and simply held me in her arms. I felt like a child. I felt safe.
It was one of the most beautiful experiences of my life.